Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Ugghh..

It has been so hectic at our house; I feel like everything is rushed and so miss being home with Anderson. From making lunches, pumping/preparing bottles, laundry, and dishes in dishwasher, etc., how does one get everything done without feeling like you are already rushing, rushing, rushing? We are both exhausted from preparing for the next day. I sure hope this gets better. Anderson's daycare said that he is a happy baby and is doing well but at home we are having a few issues we have never had. He has been on a great routine/schedule that REALLY worked for us and he was such a happy baby during his activity time. He has also been sleeping through the entire night. At school it is hard for them to stick to the routine because he isn't taking good naps and is overstimulated. So, when we get home either he wants to sleep all night or is hard to get to sleep because he is overtired. This will get better, right? I'm currently trying to find a parent from my school who stays at home to watch Anderson for the next few months to help us keep our sanity. We know he is going to a great daycare but just aren't sure it is what is best for him. They keep telling us to give it a few weeks but we just miss our little happy guy. :( Things will get better, right?? They just have to!!

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Total Denial

I just can't believe my time at home with Anderson is over tomorrow. I'm so extremely sad about it. I really didn't ever think I would want to stay at home full time but since he was born my views have definitely changed. Anderson is such an easy, happy baby. We stay very busy and do so many fun things; now it feels like we won't have any time. I do love my job as a teacher (most days anyway) but it is very demanding and draining. The expectations are set very high and everyone works extremely hard. Really, many teachers stay until 4:30-5:00 and the kids leave at 2:30. I know I stayed quite late at the beginning of the year and even brought stuff home to do at night. The life of a teacher. Ho humm.. I need to have a positive attitude to keep my sanity.
I'm also anxious about Anderson going to daycare. It is a great one and we had many great recommendations but I feel like I know him best and it's hard to let go and trust other people who do it for their job. I know he will be safe but I'm still feeling sad about it. James and I are both going tomorrow morning to drop him off along with all of his stuff. I'm already tearing up. :(
I've really enjoyed spending so much time with our little guy. I do wish I would have taken the whole year off. Hopefully my next post won't be so depressing and will be full of optimism. We'll see. I have to post a few cute pics so it won't be all depressing.
Anderson loves his Hungry Caterpillar. Inside is a
butterfly blanket.

He looked so cute in his new vest outfit.
The aquarium wore Anderson out.
Mommy and her sweet baby boy.