Monday, December 01, 2008

It's been a year

It is hard to believe that we received the referral of the twins a year ago (and a few days). That was the best day of our lives and then everything unraveled before us. Some days are harder than others but those beautiful boys are never far away from our thoughts. We think about them all the time and hope that they get the family they deserve. It is difficult going into our tiny garage and seeing all of the boxes because most of them are full of things for the boys.

Sometimes we do think that we should have done things differently but we didn't have anyone to learn from (we didn't know of that many other RFE's at that time) and our agency was worthless when it came to helping us.

Even though it has been such a hard year full of heartache we are still hopeful that God has a plan for us and those boys. We still love them and always will. It is just so hard thinking about another adoption. I know our hearts will welcome a baby but what if things don't work out for us again? Having faith only gets you so far. We are still thinking about the possibilities.

We do have so much to be thankful for and we need to focus on those things. We can't live our lives with what if's because we still believe we made the best decision based on the information we had. It doesn't make it easier though.

6 comments:

Tiffany said...

I think of you guys and the boys all the time. Everything will work out as it was meant to...

Kristin said...

I know this past year has been incredibly hard... The decision you had to make was no decision any parent should ever be forced to make. I have to believe that everything will work out for you guys in the end - I just know it will.

You guys are so special and you'll definitely be great parents...I can't wait to follow along on your journey - whatever path you choose!

Sandra & Steve said...

Don't "what if it", every day you make the best decisions you can, this is a tough anniversary, but life goes on for you two and the twins. Thinking of you, wishing you the best, knowing there is still so much out there for you both. Just keep enjoying the present and moving forward.

Laura said...

I wish I had something worthwhile to say. I can't imagine how hard this has been. You're in my thoughts today.

Julie and Dean said...

You did what you had to do based on the facts, and that makes what you did the right thing. I think of the twins a lot too. You will be parents, it's meant to be. As we learned, it just doesn't happen as WE plan it to. Keep on moving forward. This time next year you can have a little bundle ( a lot happens in a year ).

The Hines Family said...

Praying for you during this time.